Monday, June 21, 2010

our dependency, His ability

Those who know your name will trust in you, for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you. (Psalm 9:10)

As I type this, it's 5:00 a.m. in Chicago. I woke up about an hour ago with the intent to study God's Word, write DW's blog, and then work all day at the office. However, much has taken place since I rolled out of bed. Mind you, when I say "rolled out of bed", I mean it. You see, last week I aggravated my lower back and have been coping with intense pain ever since. If you've ever endured a sciatic issue, you know how terrible the pain can be as it resonates down your legs and cripples you from walking upright. This is my main problem and it has forced me to limit my movement and walk with a cane for several days now. Ouch. Not good.

This morning I tried everything to get myself comfortable in front of my computer... but nothing seemed to worked. Sitting in a normal chair proved too painful. Standing was even worse. So, this morning I concluded that there would be no DW today. There would be no study time in God's word at my desk. There would be no work completed later at the office. No, nothing would be happening in the world of Victoria except my broken body being curled up in bed and stuck stuck stuck. This reality brought me to tears as the frustration of my ongoing health problems were once again realized while the length of my to do list and unanswered emails seemed overwhelming. Needless to say, this morning I started my day defeated. The enemy was winning over my spirit. Simply put, this devoted woman was crushed.

Isn't it interesting how God can use our most vulnerable and desperate situations to teach us valuable truths about our character? For as broken as I am physically today, God still used my situation to point out how stubbornly I can strive to be in total control and how frequently I can allow pain to distract me away from His many blessings.

But what do you do when you cannot control? Who do you depend on when life takes an unexpected and unwelcomed turn? Where do you go when pain overwhelms you?

When I was about ready to completely breakdown in a storm of sobs this morning, my wonderful husband quietly stepped up to the plate and brought me a hot cup of hazelnut coffee. Knowing I needed help, he paused his busy day to kindly rub the strained area in my lower back and whispered words of encouragement in my ear. Then, he directed me to a recliner in our family room that he had set up "just so" with my painful situation in mind. It had a portable shiatsu massage pad on it and pillows to prop me up in the most comfortable position I've experienced in days. I was amazed to finally feel relief. The icing on the cake was when Chuck handed me his work laptop and said, "I can go into the office a little later this morning, Vic. You do what you need to do for DW and relax in this chair. I'll take care of everything else." All that I was struggling to control was instantly remedied by my husband's faithfulness and love. Mind you, this is a man who is very busy and frequently on the phone at 3:00 a.m. every morning - wheeling and dealing with our German headquarters. This is a guy who has much more on his plate than I could ever dish onto my own. Yet Chuck is never too busy for me. He loves me. Yes, this is a true gentleman who cares about his lady more than his own life and outwardly showcases his affection in how he speaks and treats me every second of every day. This is my dear husband. Oh, how I love him so.

Through Chuck's testimony today, God reminded me that I am never the one in total control. God is. When I feel stuck or crippled from anything this world (or my body) delivers, it is crucial that I accept the fact that I am a dependent creature. I was not made to do it all... to handle it all... to endure it all by myself. No, God made me to need Him. God made me to love and fellowship with others in His name. God created me to live fully (no matter what my circumstance) while rejoicing in His glory and demonstrating His grace in every area of my life... even a broken back... even a crushed spirit. Furthermore, in times of complete chaos and moments of uncertainty, I must always remember that God will always provide. He will deliver exactly what I need, when I need it. He is never too busy for me. Yes, He is a true gentleman who will take care of me even when I am unable to take care of myself. He will do whatever is necessary for my benefit. Why? Because God loves me - more than I could ever imagine. He is my relief.

Well, today has not panned out the way I would have preferred or planned. But that is ok. My body is not capable of enduring what I would have hoped for. But that is alright too. For God clearly loves me and wishes to still use and teach me about His glory. I must remember to keep the focus off myself (and Satan's painful distractions) and onto His bigger, more important picture. I must surrender my vision of control and instead be willing to receive His continuous demonstration of love for me and share it with others. You see, my King is always showcasing His love in how He speaks to me and how He treats me every second of every day. This whole universe was created so that I may personally relate directly to my good, heavenly Husband while trusting His perfect reign - even in the most challenging of trials. It is most important that I always notice Him first... that I always praise His name and trust His agenda over my own! This is how a crushed spirit becomes a victorious success. This is how a broken woman can live free of the enemy's grasp and be used to uplift and encourage others while glorifying Jesus Holy Name. This is how devotion must be displayed in every single challenging moment... with a complete dependency to our Divine Comforter! The God who will show up when He is most needed. The God who has planned things "just so" for each of us to live richly in the relief of His grace. What a blessing!

Ladies, God will always provide for us - no matter what the trial, no matter what the pain. Our responsibility, however, is to faithfully surrender over our pride and the need to control how life will play out. Instead, we must live every moment trusting Him. We must stand in complete agreement to His ways while we leave our own expectations aside. Our dependency must rest fully in His ability. For He is able and will bring us the relief we need - exactly when we need it. Let us remain forever dependent in His gracious, loving care.

Let us surrender ourselves over to the authority of our dearest, dearest Husband. He will take care of us. He will deliver. He will come through and bring us the help and relief we so desperately need. Trust Him no matter what pain may arise... no matter what trial may come. God will not forsake those who seek after Him. He will always remedy our situation by extending His faithfulness and love.

Join me in praise, ladies. Our God is sooo good. Oh, how I love Him so! Blessed be the Name of the Lord forever!

Blessings!
Blog Posting Written By Victoria Anderson

2 comments:

  1. What an encouraging reminder to each one who reads this. Thank you Victoria, for allowing our Lord to remind us of Who He is and/or who He is wanting to be, speaking through your backache and bringing it into a spiritual connotation.

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  2. Thank you for reminding us just how important it is to trust in His power and not in our own, to trust in His strength and not in our own, and to trust in His plans and not in our own. Praise be to God!!!!

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